I always say how my life has been filled with plenty ups and downs, and well, I figured I would brief you on how I got where I am today. Of course this isn't the full story (I could write a novel!), but it's the jist.

• Birth - 6 weeks: Living with my birth parents in my birth father's mother's house. Birth father runs out on us while mother is in adoption process. I am adopted by two great parents.
  
• 6 weeks - 3 years: Never crawled, but ate a lot of yummy foods and spit up. Talked early on, first word was either "Erica" or "broccoli".
  
• 3 - 5 years: Enrolled in pre-school 10 minutes from home. Met best friend Shannon, and other nice boys and girls. Was very outdoorsy, active, and loved climbing trees. Had a Barbie birthday cake, and held parties at the gymnastics arena.
• 5 - 7 years: Enrolled in an alternative, wonderfully inviting elementary school for kindergarten, up to 2nd grade. Closer than ever to Shannon. Was quite spoiled, and loved to buy mini trinkets and Barbie dolls. Had a ever-growing Barbie collection. Bullying began around age 6, same year diagnosed with severe asthma.
• 7 - 9 years: 3rd and 4th grade. Shannon and I's friendship ended, and I made many more come-and-go friends. Good student, strong writing abilities and loved to read. Still very bubbly; a social butterfly. Cautious of the kids at school, bullying persisted regardless of action we took. Been visiting Sun River Resort in Oregon each summer, spending a lot of time in Oregon with grandma (mom's mom). Met my first love who I was yet to grow up with, and attended my first Stars On Ice show with mom. Lived through beyond 6. earthquake that threw the bricks off the school.
• 9 - 11 years: 5th grade. Graduated from elementary school, enrolled in alternative program within middle school 15 minutes from home, 5 minutes from my pre-school. Good relationship with my parents, took a trip to Whistler, B.C. this year. Owned my first camera. Obsession with Hilary Duff - first true "idol". Nearly "died" from severe asthma attack. Rode horses briefly.
• 11 - 12 years: 6th grade. Bullying became 5x more severe, and decided to pursue home-schooling for the rest of my middle school career. Made some best friends, said a cute "I love you" for the first time, and had my first "date".Asthma slowly fades, diagnosed with SAD/GAD.
• 12 - 14 years: 7th and 8th grade, dad administrates my education with the aid of online curriculum. Experience sitting in on my dad's College sociology course on many occasions, got the feeling that I was yet to "belong" on a College campus. Had a few closer friends and cycled through life slowly the first year. Discovered Ekaterina Gordeeva's figure skating, and found my true idols. Signed up for YouTube, and began to gain viewers. Fell in love for the first time, and started dating. Diagnosed with skin disorder.
• 14 - 15 years: Freshman year. Attended the alternative online learning program within in-person high school, made amazing bonds with my three teachers. Found inspiration within English teacher's writing, forming my blog with the name "Bridgette's Diary" relating to his award-winning novel. Idaho for summer vacation. Diagnosed with allergic reaction towards dairy products, and experienced a breast cyst.
• 15 - 16 years: Sophomore year. Enrolled in a alternative high school program with good status. Had a rough patch and made a few relationship/general life mistakes, but learned to forgive myself-- it is the only way we can improve ourselves. Struggled with poor friendships and enjoyed a trip to Vegas to celebrate the end of the school year. For 16th birthday, I re-connected with friend Mark/we began to date, and I received my Nikon.
• 16 - 17 years: Junior year. Received many College request letters and was invited on many educational seminar trips. Still deciding where and what I will study, but maintaining healthy relationships with those around me. Visiting San Juan Island this summer vacation. On the road to curing skin disorder and made much progress with GAD.

A couple weeks ago, my blogging rhythm was interrupted when my wallet went "missing". I stepped away from my bag for five-six minutes during class, and returned to find it gone. Of course, if it was stolen, no kid wanted to blow the lid off the can as to who did it, and especially not to a student like me!

I had a lot to contemplate after this incident, but surprisingly handled it very well emotionally. I was strong, demanding, and whipped into action, trusting my instincts and accepting: whatever will be will be. My wallet was already gone, and there was nothing I could do to solve the mystery.

I searched high and low with the principal and teachers, and had every student on high alert. My cards were cancelled within 15 minutes of the incident, and unfortunately, only $9 was left for this assumed thief, aside from a few maxed-out gift cards and ridiculously unusable club cards.

I went and got a new library card, cancelling the other, and sat for two hours at DOL to register my new and hopefully final driver's license. So, naturally, the biggest "downer" this incident caused was not being able to transport myself to appointments and classes for 1.5 days. I do my best to put a positive spin on the whole situation, stating: "Well, hey! At least my new license's photo looks better than my last!"

Overall, I never thought I would have to experience this, but I can say: you do get through it, and as someone who knows how sucky it is to lose all semi-critical items that helped you network and whatnot: please take this as a warning sign for yourself and back up what ever business cards/phone numbers you have. It may not seem like it will ever happen to you (because you probably wouldn't be as foolish to leave your bag in a room alone), but there's a good chance it could at some point in your life.

Sure, I feel a little more on-edge coming to school with a wallet, and I do feel fearful, knowing our school has the least theft problem of them all, but on top of that, I feel proud--proud of the authority I work with every day, proud of my self-growth, and proud that ignorance will eventually be proven within justice.

Towards the end of one of my recent vlogs I mentioned the two latest activity/self-discovery books I have been finding myself within, 5 and 1. 1 was a birthday gift from my dear boyfriend, which I accidentally got on a roll with and filled out within half an hour (I'm good!).

I figured you all would like some of the highlight activities, so I jotted down most of them and their jists in case you wanted to experience the self-learning process within these gems.

Book 5:

1. Record your top five lifetime values. It is easier to identify your top goals in life if you identify the values in which you place yourself.

2. What are the 3 things you like the most and least about yourself?

3. Who is the happiest person you know?

4. Who are the two people you like and respect the most, and why?

5. Write your personal mission statement. Ask yourself: "What is my calling, my life's aim? What inspires me the most? What activity or service is my core values urging me to pursue?"

6. Write your dreams down (they may just become goals)!

7. Set five-year goals for yourself in these categories: Relationships, Spirituality, Family, Career, Health, Financial, Education, Recreation, Charitable, Travel, and Romance.

8. List five things you've been procrastinating about and plan a little bit of action on all five this week.

* Fun activity involving age and Mathematics * 1) Get out a pencil and do this math... multiply your age x 365 days (that will give you your current age in days). Subtract that number from 27,375 days (average lifespan). You probably have _____ days left.

9. Write down your definition of "success".

Book 1:

1. Who are you? Why are you here? What are you doing for others?

2. Chart your Course - List someone you've already taught/mentored, someone you've already supported or helped, someone you've already encouraged or inspired, someone you've already forgiven, and something in your community that you have already changed for the better. Now write one for each in your future that you will.

3. Make a collection of your heroes' names and jot down why they inspire you. Then, write down things you could be doing to encourage those around you.

4. Write down which causes you care about and what gets your juices flowing, things that upset you or make your blood boil, things that make you cry or feel sad, and issues you always talk about with your friends.

5. List things you are good at, things that make you feel good, talents you would be excited to put to use more, and your unique background or experience with subjects. Write down what most important things you will devote your energy to, to reach your highest callings? How will you personally address the world's deepest inequalities?

6. List some people that had a significant influence on you, but probably didn't know it. Then list the ways you plan on thanking them. How will you intentionally nudge others the same way these figures did for you?

7. Write your very own motto. Examples: "Every individual has a role to play." - The Jane Goodall Institute, "Speak up for the sharks" - Ocean Conservancy. My serious motto? "When people learn of mercy and love, they finally learn of living." My humorous motto, yet true? "Go big or go home!"

8. Now, form a big project idea and stick to it until you finish. What will your first step be? Set a target date for the first step, and proceed from then on.

I hope you all enjoyed these tips and tricks from Mr. Dan Zandra, guru in all things lifestyle and inspiration. I would like to share my all-time favorite quote while flipping through 5 and 1... "Help publicly. Help privately. Help in your actions by recycling and conserving and protecting, but help also in your attitude. Help make sense where sense has gone missing. Help bring reason and respect to discourse and debate. Help science to solve and faith to soothe. Help law bring justice, until justice is commonplace. Help and you will abolish apathy--the void that is so quickly filled by ignorance and evil." ~ Tom Hanks (You know, the guy from Big. I was surprised too!).

Sheesh! So much as been going on. First, I lost my wallet, so I didn't have a car, then I lost my sanity due to the insanity of the situation (could that sentence be any more complicated?)! The work-load piled up, I am scheduled to partake in the SAT next month, and arrangements for my senior year thickened. Boy do I have a lot on my plate, and on top of that--I am 17!

While shuffling around in my mind, trying to find just one perk to being this new age, a new, strange sanity overwhelmed me. Individuals who I consider "my third family" (partner's family, really) brought by a big balloon, lillies, and a beautiful card with a sentimental message. Within half an hour,  I was exchanging messages with my older cousin on Facebook as he wished me a "Happy Birthday". It is now that I realize: all the birthday greetings in the world could not make me happier than the people who support me. Family is what life is about--unconditional love, compassion for one another, and forgiveness when we all make mistakes.

I got inspiration this morning by a blogger who talked about the 26 things they had learned by the time they turned 26. Something instantly clicked inside me. Oh gosh! I am going to be 17 in no time (to be exact, three days)!

I know list-format blog posts interest a lot of readers and get them thinking about topics of their own to post about, so I figured I would partake in this "list of learning" myself!

1). You don't touch the burner when it is turned on... it is hot.

2). I probably will never crawl. I'm standing on two feet, ma! Somethin's different!

3). I am resilient. I have always been stronger, both with wisdom and emotional mentality. I have pulled myself up out of every hardship I have come across, and fast. I bounce back up and continue on. (I can also put up with quite the B.S. from others! I am not easily broken).

4). I am here to help others--to heal, to guide, to teach, and to lead.

5). I'm not a one-nighter kind of gal. I date merely for love, with an eye for the future and a possible courtship. I have a soft, tender side to the fiery lover within. I am here to please my future #1, and take a backseat to his or her glory.

6). I see things how they are--no exceptions, no questions, and no confusion about life's facts. I enjoy living this way, therefore I can enjoy the little joys I find along the way. I am a sentimental soul, filled with special "givings".

7). More than likely, the majority of people I meet will not understand me due to the lack of sincerity and depth within my generation. I am realistic, loud, and blunt about what I believe in--it is not a question of optimism or pessimism; it just is. I hear that's a bit scary for some not always confident in their voice. I have forgiveness for those who do not have their voice, and will always encourage them to find it.

8). Boys will be boys. Lying, cheating, and secretive people. I do my best as a woman to love them tenderly and let my chosen one know that I will not betray. I do my part to give women a better reputation than we do in some eyes. I keep my eyes open, and give equal trust and faith in each man I meet, unless they prove differently.

9). You cannot "save" someone from themselves, or their feelings. However, you can help them out of it and give them the encouragement to continue with confidence.

10). The leaders that came before me which I now follow, the teachers within my life, and my parents have been nothing but abnormal. They are beautiful, graceful people, rarely found in a child's life, for which I am ever thankful.

11). My birth mother gave me the best life and knew she was during the process. My birth father should be ashamed to not be a part of my life, and severely missed out on a kick-ass daughter.

12). I crave being recognized--acknowledged, given attention, and loved unconditionally. I crave the feeling of fitting in, being one in the crowd, and known as a human being, due to the bullying I endured at a young age.

13). Life is never going to be perfect, and I can see each reason for an occurrence within my journey. I hold more spiritually-based faith than the rest of my family and peers, and believe God is guiding my journey here on earth.

14). I know my body well, and know what to put in it/how to treat it. I am educated on the health and wellness aspects of life and emotional therapy/renewal.

15). The song I want played at my funeral is "All for Love" by Michael Bolton--it captures my spirit and what I hoped to achieve on this earth, regardless of those who desire to push me down.

16). Education is important--and yes, those "future planning papers" we create in high school will indeed help us in our futures. It is important to focus on high grades, continue your interest in College, and discover who you are.

17). Some individuals cannot stand it when others are happy or successful, and know how to raise their voice. It is threatening, and hard for others to comprehend.

Ever since I was a young girl, my parents always had the most incredible parenting ethic. I was having a conversation earlier today about why parents sometimes set ridiculous rules and diminish their child's right to free speech--it seems I know too many of them. You know how they always say you should write up a list of things your parents did with you that you want to do with your children in the future?

Well, here are a few of mine:

1). I will always let my child have their own voice, question authority, and ask why something is the way it is in order for them to learn, discover, and explore with their own freedom and right to their own beliefs.

2. I will guide my child into holding steady morals and values, but let them have their freedom to decide what is right for themselves personally, and choose all the knitty-gritty details on their own. I will allow them to disagree with me, question me on my own beliefs, and form their own code of right-and-wrong.

3. I will try my best not to raise my voice, but be firm, steady, and hold a functional, concrete form of punishment and reminder. I will set limits, boundaries, but never lay a hand on my child, nor curse them. I will set the rules clearly, so they do not get confused.

4. When my child feels ready to gain a bit of their own freedom and gain their driver's license, etc, I will never shut their ideas down immediately, but reflect upon the maturity I had at their age and consider the possibility.

5. I will vocally and actively appreciate them, their talents, and their endeavors. I will never force or persuade them to stay in a hobby they do not enjoy/that is making them miserable. I will let them choose their own paths in life and pride them for knowing where it is they would like to journey to.

To the soon-to-be parents out there, the already-parents, and children who may have children in the future: the most important thing you can do is acknowledge your child's dreams, wishes, and VOICE. Let them speak up, defend their beliefs, and question the methods of majority. Regardless if you are a parent or not, we are all each others teachers, leaders, and guides on this great big path of life. Be kind to one another, and do not hold an ageist response to every little situation to present itself in conversation.

What are your top 5 traits and qualities you would like to instill in your parenting efforts just as your parent/s did? Email me and share ideas!

Friday evening, I drove to Tacoma, Washington to witness a once-in-a-lifetime speech made by archbishop Desmond Tutu--a Nobel Peace Prize winner and civil rights activist in South Africa, known for being a part of the movement involving people such as Nelson Mandela. This was nearing the end of his American speaking tour, and possibly the last visit he will make to the U.S. as far as I and others are aware.

While I found it quite odd that some of my educated peers shook their heads and wrote off the event as if they "didn't know who Desmond Tutu was and didn't care", I was pleasantly surprised at who did attend. I was sitting next to an individual who I have had small conflicts with, which just so happened to be the cherry on top of a beautiful night. Why, you may ask? Tutu's belief incorporates forgiveness and love to all humans, and compassion between two that come together. Being able to share a bittersweet message with someone I earlier had trouble understanding, created a spark within my soul, reminding me that I can accept and appreciate everyone, regardless of our differences.

Unlike many Americans at this moment, I am strongly against celebrating the death of any human life, regardless of how dangerous they could be. It is not humane, and not compassionate. Mr. Tutu mentioned this as well, and said that he agreed with my forgiving belief. We are all God's children, and when one of God's children murders another of God's children, that is truly something to mourn. I am a fair, loving individual, and certainly not a hypocrite. My prayers were with every troubled individual that night: those who wish to cause harm to another individual, or that have personal conflicts of their own that they do not deserve to battle.

With religious preachers, my only concern is their agenda and morale on "taboo" subjects such as homosexuality, which to me, within a Christian-based religion, should not be a debated question, but automatically accepted. The predicted teachings of Jesus Christ were much the same to individuals who follow through with his message, such as Martin Luther King Jr., and Mr. Tutu, who expressed the heart and soul of *a Christian* that night--one that is loving of all walks of life, who speaks out the message of Jesus with a steady voice, and lives exactly the way a true Christian would, in my opinion (I am not God, so I cannot say "should").

Desmond Tutu showed incredible confidence, humor, education, hope, and the BELIEF in my generation that will carry on the message of our choice for years to come--a message we have immense impact on and need to decide a peaceful, giving, and solving resolution within. A big thanks to "the arch"; you inspired me.

Adding new trends to the already raved about frappuccinos, Starbucks created a summer flavor: coconut cream, and coconut mocha! I am a huge fan of coconut myself, but not so crazy about the mocha. I skipped on the mocha, and enjoyed my delicious coconut cream, caffeine-free frap. Boy was it delicious! This drink starts around $3 for a tall.

Strawberries and cream has never been a mixture I liked, either, and I have luckily never had to consume a full frappuccino, but my generous father let me have a few sips of his to judge for taste. Way too sugary, in my opinion, and tastes pretty artificial (aren't they all?). This drink starts at around $3.

I do not know how "seasonal" this coconut flavor is going to be, so get on out there and try it while you can! I hope you all attended the "Frappuccino Happy Hour" which lasted from May 6th to today from 3PM-5PM every day, fraps half off. I wonder what the next sale will bring...

Yesterday, my mom and dad answered some tough questions to help me understand where they are coming from just a wee bit more. Here are my answers to the questions I was able to...

What tells you when a child is responsible enough to be trusted?
When they hold enough moral structure in their lives and are totally honest to their parents and peers.

What was the most often disagreement or argument topic between your mother and you growing up?
We disagreed on little things here and there, but mainly the typical kid-mom "I want this" - "You can't have that right now" thing.

What was the most often disagreement or argument topic between your father and you growing up?
Same as my mom, but we disagreed a lot on homework, because my dad homeschooled me for 7th and 8th grade. Try having your dad as a teacher--it is homework in itself!

Which was your most important intimate relationship in high school and why did it end?
As far as I can say right now, I have had two that really struck my heart. My first kiss and puppy love throughout my young years up until freshman year, and my first true love in 8th grade, who ended up cheating on me. That was the day I realized I could never settle for less, and growing into my teen years, I needed to find someone who was mature enough to feel real love. 

What kind of things get you the angriest and why?
I'm a generally irritable person, so anything to everything, and sometimes nothing. I strongly dislike it when partners claim they won't do something, but continue the behavior over and over again. I hate when people and partners lie, show false traits or act like something they are not, and when they just seem not to listen. The generation I have grown up within makes me the angriest, due to the lack of morals and maturity.

Who was your best friend in high school and what did they teach you?
I don't like to use the term "best friend" that much, really, but my partner Mark is my closest confidant, while being my boyfriend. We can tell each other everything, and he has taught me that it is O.K. to feel relaxed, calm, and centered within nature and the person you are with--that you don't always need to worry. Three of the other friends I have been fortunate to have kept close are named Ebony, Lene, and Amber. Ebony lives in Australia, and Lene lives in Belgium. Amber is my school buddy. They all never fail to make me laugh, cheer me up on a bad day, and have shared so many ups and downs with me. I wouldn't trade my friends for anything in the world.

Do you want a marriage like your parents?
Absolutely. I am trying my hardest not to give in to an early marriage, or at least not plan on one! I think marrying later in life, late 20s/early 30s, gives you a chance to explore what you really want, instead of being clueless and marrying spur-of-the-moment. However, sincere, mature dating so early might just end up being a successful bet in the long run for myself in particular. My parents model so much of what I hope to become.

Were you ever bullied or teased as a child? If so, for what reasons?
To be honest, I never figured out the reasons. Whether it was my appearance, or my apparent "unpleasant" antics, something made those cold-blooded kids snap. I was bullied left and right, up and down my entire childhood from 1st grade up to 6th, and to this day, some of those kids have not grown up, nor apologized.

What traits do you value the most in a woman/man? What traits don't you like?
Honesty, humor, trust, sentimentality, confidence, love and kindness, good listening skills, etc. I don't like arrogance, ignorance, immaturity, too much innocence, lack of back-bone, and shyer individuals, at least for partners of mine.

What traits do you hope your child finds for their own partner? What traits would you disapprove of?
 The exact same positive traits I listed above. I want them to find someone who is optimistic, as well. Any kind of abuse I would not tolerate, same with dishonesty and distrust.

What is your personal opinion on body art, such as tattoos? Classy or trashy?
I think they are very expressing and lovely, as long as you're not stupid about what design you pick. Pick something that is close to your heart and that you will not regret in the long run, and I call that extremely classy. If I was ever to get a tattoo, I would get a small "S" on my right shoulder in clean, cursive calligraphy.

Who was most strict growing up? Mom or dad?
Neither of my parents are "strict", per se, but both of my parents acted more strictly than each other at different times, in different situations. Because I was not raised in a policed, strict environment, I turned out quite all right!

Did you collect anything when you were younger? What?
Stamps, rocks, and seashells, from what I remember. Today, I just collect photos.

What did you want to be when you were in high school? Where did you come up with these ideas?
Right now, I am looking at some sort of business management/supervising, psychology and philosophy, historian, scientist, writer or journalist, or graphic/video/web designing. I am very in touch with who I am, what my weaknesses and strengths are, and how to use them efficiently. I came up with the ideas after years of discovering my inner callings and which career fields would suit my energy and spirit.

Today, I sat down individually and questioned my parents on the facts of life and their deepest opinions, to perhaps get some unanswered suspicions as to why I have become the person I am today!

What tells you when a child is responsible enough to be trusted?
Dad: I suppose when my child does what is expected and what they say they are going to do over a certain amount of time; trust builds. I trust my daughter, because she does what she says she is going to do, and doesn't lie.
Mom: When they don't do anything "outlandish" or dishonest.

What was the most often disagreement or argument topic between your mother and you growing up?
Dad: Probably homework.
Mom: She wanted me to talk more than I was open to, or I was a more reserved person than she was.

What was the most often disagreement or argument topic between your father and you growing up?
Dad: That was more about what he wanted me to do--he had some pretty unrealistic expectations of me, and he was a very quiet communicator so it was hard to know what he wanted all the time. I couldn't figure out what to do, so I couldn't make him happy.
Mom: The times I wanted to do things he wouldn't let me do.

Which was your most important intimate relationship in high school and why did it end?
Dad: There was this one girlfriend I had, in 10th grade. She decided not to go out with me anymore, so that was hard to deal with, because I never got a straight answer as to why she broke up with me. By the time we were in 12th grade, we got over the harsh feelings and we became friends. The last time I talked to her was at a high school reunion I attended with your mom.
Mom:There was the boyfriend I had in 12th grade. I went away to College, and met other individuals, so I broke up with him. I realized that I didn't want to be tied down to one person--it wasn't that I didn't like him, I just didn't want to be tied down.

What kind of things get you the angriest and why?
Dad: Myself making a mistake that I feel I shouldn't have made--I get angry at myself quite often. If I knew it was wrong beforehand, then I get angry at my failure to see that what I was doing was going to lead to a mistake. If I didn't see it, it's not that big of a deal. We all make mistakes.
Mom: Things that aren't fair, for example: in the workplace, or sometimes I get angry when I feel like I can't get a word in edgewise within a conversation. Also, when my views are not being acknowledged.

Who was your best friend in high school and what did they teach you?
Dad: There were two guys I was pretty close to in the neighborhood - Mark and Larry. Larry was crazy, so he taught me not to be crazy like him--he was wild! He was funny, but man, some of the stuff we ended up doing, we were lucky to live through. Mark and his father taught me how to fish... they were into hunting and fishing, so I would go with them and have a good time. We went for years.
Mom: My best friend was a girl named Annie. We would hangout a lot, and part of what she taught me was how to be friends with an individual who came from such a different background than myself.

How would you describe mom/dad the first time you saw her/him?
Dad: I thought she was good lookin', smart, and funny. She was athletic, and enjoyed playing baseball. I was drawn to her and wanted to know her more.
Mom: Handsome! He seemed nice and laidback. He was considerate, interesting, among other things.

Before you got married, did you want a marriage like your parents?
Dad: In some ways, yes, in some ways, no. I wanted a loving, caring, and long-lasting marriage, yes. However, I wanted one with more communication than they had. More yes than no, but I am still grateful for the differences in mom and I's relationship. Different times and circumstances change a lot.
Mom: Yea. My parents had a stable, long-lasting relationship, and they did not fight. They got along well, and it wasn't just that their relationship was stable--our family was stable. We stayed in one house our entire lives, and I envisioned that for my future family.

Were you ever bullied or teased as a child? If so, for what reasons?
Dad: Oh yeah. Probably because I wasn't too athletic. Back then, if you were a boy and weren't athletic, it was pretty much a guarantee that you got picked on.
Mom: My brothers might have teased me some, but I can't remember particularly why. I was the youngest, and I was the girl. People in school never made fun of me.

What traits do you value the most in a woman/man? What traits don't you like?
Dad: Independence, intelligence, honesty, caring, humorous, hard-working. Dishonesty is the worst, along with vanity and shallowness.
Mom: Honesty, calmness, good listener, humorous, kindness, thoughtfulness, etc. Aggressiveness is the worst, along with loud-mouths, egotistical, conceited, and/or self-centered men.

What traits do you hope I find in my future for my own partner? What traits would you disapprove of?
Dad: I hope you find someone that is caring, trustworthy, funny, honest, intelligent. I want you to find what I found. Anybody who is going to be dishonest or not trustworthy, or hurt you, I wouldn't appreciate. Anybody who hurts you physically, or mentally. Somebody who lies to you, etc.
Mom: The same positive traits I mentioned before. Any kind of violent, aggressive behavior is not okay. Dishonest behavior, as well.

How is my personality the same or different from when I was younger?
Dad: You are still very sensitive, still intelligent (highly so), and you're still funny. You used to be more outdoorsy--much less so now to the point that it's noticeable. You would run, play, jump, climb trees, hike, etc. You're still anxious in new situations, although you have improved a lot. You are more willing to take risks to this day than ever before.
Mom: You're much more outgoing, with a lesser need for "attachment" or dependency. You are independent. You are very outspoken, more so than you were back then. Those are the main things.

What is your personal opinion on body art, such as tattoos? Classy or trashy?
Dad: I wouldn't say it's "classy", and a lot of it seems silly, but I wouldn't say "trashy" either. Somewhere in the middle.
Mom: I've seen very little body art that to me is visually appealing. I don't understand why people get body art, for the most part, at least extensively.

Have I lived up to your greatest expectations of me for the age I am now? What were those expectations, in terms of moral code and the way I conduct myself.
Dad: You have met, if not exceeded my expectations, in terms of your moral behavior. I think you're a very honest and sincere person. You don't go out and do drugs and engage in other risk taking behaviors just for the thrill of it. I appreciate that; it saves me a lot of anxiety.
Mom: Yes! My expectations, or more so "hopes", were that you would be a good student, have good friends, be happy with yourself, be looking forward to College and the future, and be independent--the level you are right now without being isolated from your parents. One of the things that exceeded my hopes was your morals and your non-interest in substance use.

In what ways do you think you were different from me at my age? The same?
Dad: We're both kind of shy, I suppose. Both more reserved in some situations. If you're among friends and family, you're very outspoken, and to be able to go to authority, or community meetings and speak out publicly, that's amazing for 16-17--that's the great gift you have that I didn't. I had a paying job, which is, I guess, less popular these days, and a lot of the jobs we had, your generation doesn't. You do a lot of volunteer and community service, and I didn't. I love to read novels, and am not that technologically advanced or interested in what you do, blogging and whatnot. I loved the newspaper, and was very interested in the space program, and the Vietnam war. We are both interested in history. I was into autoshop technology, and was never as fluidly artistic as you. I loved drafting, architectural drawing, and mechanics.
Mom: I didn't interact with my parents very much. I did more group activities with friends and went to parties, while you enjoy calming, solo activities. I was interested in extracurricular activities. We are both good students, do our homework assignments without much nagging, and I think our need for privacy is very similar, even though you do share a lot and interact with me--liking that feeling of independence. You are College-bound, and not naturally athletic--as was I. I did hangout with my boyfriend a lot, and we cooked meals together like you do with yours.

Who was most strict growing up? Mom or dad?
Dad: Probably my dad. I could get away with more stuff talking to my mom.
Mom: My dad.

Did you collect anything when you were younger? What?
Dad: When I was in Cub Scouts, I made a coin collection. My biggest collection was my books, and still is.
Mom: Sort of. I liked stuffed animals, and ceramic horses.

What did you want to be when you were in high school? Did you end up changing your major through college? Where did you come up with these ideas?
Dad: I thought in high school that I'd like to be a high school history teacher, but then I started college, and once I started my sociology course, I liked it better than history. I am now teaching college-level sociology. I guess history is part of sociology--they are cousins, so to speak.
Mom: When I was in high school, I didn't know for sure what I was going to do, or what I even wanted to do, but when I went to College, I was in Natural Resource Management and then it changed to Environmental Science. I am now an environmental scientist/supervisor.

For me, social networking is (of course) a way to stay connected to my classmates, long-lost friends/family, teachers, co-workers, and bosses, while having the great opportunity to meet other people from around the world that think and speak like I do!

The services I use are always changing and being updated, but at the moment... I currently use these:

Twitter: I use this for connecting with blog/montage fans, fans of the things I love, and for updating friends and family on my current life's happenings.

Facebook: This is my haven of social networking--everything clicked into one, easy-to-navigate package. I have every single person imaginable that I would love to reconnect with, stay in touch with, and quite a few I don't know all that well. I am a pretty "open adder", and love to connect with just about anyone. However, due to confidentiality reasons, I am weary on adding blog/montage viewers. If you use Facebook and still haven't "liked" my blog's official page, you can do that by searching "UnstoppableKatya" under pages and get instant updates, photos, and quotes.

YouTube: I post my creative video montages (see page: Montages) and network with other figure skating fans. I also have my own personal YouTube channel for my favorites and friends.

Blogger: Blogger.com is my blog's host, and also the host of my montage site found here.

Formspring: I have faded out of this teenage trend over the past three or four months--it got tiring and troublesome, answering pointless questions, and most of the time: none at all! Formspring was a place for me to respond to questions from fans or family and friends, and give them the answers they wanted to know. Everyone grew tired of the daily grind after the fresh feeling wore off.

Tumblr: Along with my official blog here, hosted by Blogger.com, Tumblr is a place I can share my favorite iconic graphics with my friends and connect with people who are attracted to the same visual photographs that I am.

Digg: Under username UnstoppableKatya, I post some of the blog entries I provide here for others to see, and browse others' links every so often.

Do you know of any abnormal, or unheard of social networking sites that you would like to introduce me to? Please email me!

When I was a little girl, I had the whole Barbie sha-bang! Ken, Midge, and Barbie were my best friends. Because I was so young, I do not remember the instant affect Barbie and her posse had on my youthful mind. However, I assume the later effect was great, as I now speak up against prejudice regarding overweight individuals and personal fitness. In my eyes: no girl is flawless, yet every girl is flawless. That may seem confusing, but it truly isn't if you think of it in literal terms: no girl is without her flaws, but every girl is perfect in her own way.

When I was a young girl, I had the thinnest little body I have ever seen. Long, little legs and arms, and flowingly long, wavy, dirty blonde hair. I had a smile that would light up the room, and a loud laugh that was contagious. I was a happy girl, running around the yard and climbing trees. Now, I am curvy, developed, and have thicker thighs and thicker arms, topped off with shoulder-length, thick, mildly-wavy, deep brown hair. I still have a smile that lights up the room, and a loud laugh that is contagious. I am a happy young woman, busy blogging, writing, learning, discovering.

While learning and discovering, I have realized something very important: it is not the weight or appearance you are that defines you, but more so the heart you have and what you do for your community. Some parents or educational advisers may say that Barbie is the misrepresentation of the female body. To some degree, but let us not forget that Barbie had curvy hips, bigger breasts, and big cheeks--typically not traits of a "hot blonde" in the idealistic, young society. Scientifically, by majority: Caucasian women have smaller breasts and the "stick-like" figures come easier to many. It is, in fact, more often than not, the Hispanic or deeper skinned heritages that have the voluptuous body types. However, plastic surgery has blurred our vision of scientific truth in recent years.

I would much rather be with a partner who was overweight, than without a heart. I would much rather be overweight, than dangerously skinny and on the verge of anorexia. I would rather be loving, filled-to-the-brim with happiness and confident in my body, than afraid to show skin because of my bones, or feeling physically ill due to malnourishment. These are the lessons I took from Barbie and her friends 11 years ago.

A friend and I decided to blog about the difference between being honest or loyal, and if the two go hand-in-hand. The question is: "Is it more important to be honest or loyal?" My answer: honest.

To me, there is a big difference between the definitions and the ways the two traits play out in every day life and relationships. The definition of "honest" is "truthfulness", or "telling the truth", and the definition of "loyal" is "faithful to a person", or "unwavering devotion to a loved one". While yes, you need to stick by your one and only true love in order to be considered "loyal" in your relationship, however, if you are unloyal for whatever reason, there is still an opportunity to be honest--by telling your partner your mistake.

Take polygamous individuals, for example the hit T.V. sensation Sister Wives. Assuming this is reality in many families across planet earth, they have developed a sense of loyalty that works for them. The most commonly used definition of "loyalty" among my generation means "not cheating" or "not trying to be with others", which is quite different in polygamous relationships, to say the least. Their sense of loyalty is making sure they keep the others informed, engaged, and check-in if they might be welcoming another wife or husband into the family. It isn't even considered "cheating" to them.

In my experience, too lengthy to cover in a single blog post, I have been hurt because of dishonesty in a relationship, far more than the possible disloyalty that might have occurred. I have had partners lie to me without cheating as well, as far as putting my physical well-being in jeopardy because their selfish conscience could not give me a bit of mercy. I have to say, the one time I was cheated on and my partner lied, the lie was what stung my fragile heart the most, not the actual act of infidelity. If you are well informed with biology and the facts of reproduction in the human species, you would know that males, and even females, are programmed to mate, and in fact, to cheat! Our society has shunned cheaters, "players", and the like, when really, it all comes down to science.

Taking the scientific viewpoint: males and females are going to cheat, no matter what their partner threatens them with or prays for. Cheating is a way of life, unfortunately, for many people. Now, don't get me wrong--I'm not supporting disloyal individuals, but I have had enough experience in my young life to understand that there is no possible way to prevent your partner from infidelity. Some uneducated people think if they offer their partner more sex, or "take the heat" within an argument, it will make their partner want to stay around. The honest truth is: they have to want to be faithful to you, and engaged in the relationship/agree to fidelity in order to have a healthy, successful bond with you.

All I know, is that if my partner cheated tomorrow, I would want him to calmly and lovingly sit me down and confide in me that he made a mistake, and even if that action was not a mistake in his mind, that he was sorry, and that he had to leave me. My relationship is better than it ever was, due to our honest and compassionate attitudes towards one another. Yes, we have loyalty, too, but didn't always. Once my partner figured out that I wouldn't be furious with him if he made a mistake, he was able to let his guard down and tell me the truth. You have to give your partner space to do what they would like to do, and accept that they will be attracted to other individuals, even if they do not act on this attraction. That is the biology of life, and there is nothing you can do to stop it. You wouldn't stop gravity, now would you?

On March 10th, 2009 I started this personal goal list for myself. It changes rapidly every 3-5 months, with a whole new goal sheet and a whole new outlook. You are welcome to visit back to this post to see how I've progressed.

Current Goals:
- Tone tummy and thighs
- Diagnose health issues
- Whiten my teeth

- Try Chinese food
- Do something new
- Do something challenging
- Heal health issues
* This list will change on June 5th.

Past Completed Goals:
Get a car
Get a Nikon model camera
Learn to cook
Have a good sweet 16
Diagnose skin disorder
Meet someone famous
Go to Las Vegas
Go to Madame Tussauds
Start driving
Become more laid-back
Look into future jobs/Colleges
Get a new cell phone
Get a volunteer job
Go to Phoenix
Don't throw up on plane to Phoenix
See Kristi Yamaguchi Friends & Family live
Read and finish a book
Start writing autobiography
Eat seafood I've never tried
Take vitamins
Go to a live Mariners baseball game (for the second time).
Get Sims3.
Tan ('09).
See fireworks ('09).
Get a better hairstyle
Buy nice shoes
Go to the fair
Go to the beach
Vacation in Idaho (for the second time)
Visit old friends
Go jet-boating
Talk to Derik Nelson
Have a 4th of July BBQ
Perform in an ice show

Last update: May 5th, 2011.

In honor of Mother's Day, I am sharing a letter with my readers--one that is written for my future child, explaining some of my values and dreams instilled by my own mother, grandmother, and the other fabulous women I consider second, third, and fourth mothers. This sentiment resembles a few of my maternal poems, and what my intuition predicts I will grasp in the near future when I raise children of my own.

My Child:
I hope this letter is not of an embarrassment to you, or a shameful symbol of your mother's love, but I feel the need to share this with you. These are my deepest wishes, dreams, and hopes for you--ones that I have written when I was a child myself, with the early hopes for my own future of having a wonderful child like you.

I grew up very unconventionally, breaking stereotypes of the typical child, and having a zest for life that I understand many children and young adults do not have. My wish for you is that you keep your innocent heart, healed or broken, and that you will pick up the pieces with the help of those who truly love you. That you will believe in giving second chances, and forgive, but don't forget, living with a cautious outlook when your intuition kicks in.

I hope you never become morally or emotionally weak, enough to turn to substances to heal your pain, low self-confidence or self-hurt. Only well-felt love will redeem your spirit. My wish is that you find your passion in life--whether it is writing, like your mother, or serving your community in positive ways. Always hold on to the passion that God will show you within your young life, and use it to guide yourself along your chosen path, shaking your head to peer pressure and disbelievers. Always be sure to keep your soul open to new passions as you discover who you are.

Whether or not you choose the moral of believing in a higher being, I will fully embrace you, never pushing you to lead an uncomfortable life. I hope you are never taken under the stiff wing of discriminating religion or harsh stupidity some people you will meet in your lifetime possess. I hope you understand politics, government, world history, and the secrets within. I wish that you find a common sense, and lead your life how you feel it should be led. I hope you find the knowledge this world has to offer you, and expand your horizons--something I was never good at at your age. Accept all, give your trust to humans, and have forgiveness for mankind. I hope that you will not be too quick to judge or make generalizations about a form of individual you know little about, but educate yourself instead. I want you to understand all walks of life.

At the end of a long day, I trust that you will respect those who taught you all you know, understand that it is O.K. to feel prideful, maturely question authority, and find your status in this big world, never growing an arrogant mindset, reminding yourself that you are merely a star in the vast universe of billions. I wish that you find an advanced level of grown-up attitude, are a honest individual throughout your life, and cut yourself some slack when you make a mistake. I hope you create your own identity, despite the wishes others (including your mother) have for you.

You are a gem--one in the new generation of learners, discoverers, and milestone setters. Do not give up so easily when someone or something has you down, continue on with grace, and never be afraid to show your feelings. By the time I will be reciting this letter to you face-to-face, I know you will have given me a strength in my life that I never had before, and opened my eyes to many bits and pieces of life that I never saw before. Let me wipe your tears when you need to be sad, and rejoice in the beautiful laughter when you are happy. Confide in me when you need an ear to listen, and never feel afraid to ask questions.

Watching my very own mother and taking in the lessons she taught me as a child, I know that as a mother, I want what is the very best for my child. To me, you will always be a small blessing I held my arms and nurtured to a young person, with dreams, hopes, and wishes of your own. Please note that I am not blinded by this, and that I understand sometimes you will go against what I or your other parent will wish of you, and that is perfectly okay.

My wisdom has taught me over the years that a mother is not a police officer, but a teacher. She is not frightening authority, but a friend. Sometimes, she will need to go against what you may really want to make sure you are growing up just right, but I trust that as her child, you will have faith in her to make the correct choice, and when she slips up and makes a mistake, that you will extend a comforting hand to hers. I always try my best, even if it is not obvious. My heart has pure intentions for you, and a radiating glow for the future you will make your mark on.

Sincerely,
Your mother, aged nearly 17

So, I purchased my approximate 6th laptop. With summer right around the corner, I decided to give my montage viewers something to look forward to: montages sponsored by Pinnacle Studios HD. My very first upgrade. Can you believe it!? I understand that upgrading my montage works is a long time coming, but I am eagerly excited to be working with a top-notch studio and greater effects--it can only add to the fun!

What I adore about my new laptop series, the Dm4 Pavilion by HP, is the beautifully appealing "Island keyboard" (think Macbook) and small, round, gray-pink tinted appearance, not to mention the inside features. Instead of entering your password (which can be troublesome for people like me who keep their passwords longer and complex), a simple swipe of your fingerprint over a box located as part of the keyboard will log you in. While Dr. Dre's "beats" music system is not featured on the 15", the 18"'s stereo system is beautiful and crystal clear like you're listening to HD music at a concert.

Among these features, my favorite is the amount of core processor and its speed--the Dm4 Pavilion is quad-core, which means 2.5 GHz processor speed working 4x faster, or in theory, approx. 5.1 GHz. Great for gamers and software programs (such as Pinnacle Studios) that take a bit more of a push!

The greater bargain? Only about $520 at office supply stores such as Office Depot, after mail-in rebates. I buy my anti-virus software separate, so that would have knocked off $100 of the final price, but I bought Microsoft Office and Student 2010 for another $99, and OD's 2-year wear and tear protection plan, which is another $200. Overall, for $700-800 dollars, I got much more than I had bargained for (or even need), for a fraction of the price building a laptop with HP or buying a desktop would have cost.

To this day, after experimenting with numerous brands of computers (HP, Dell, Acer, etc), HP remains my favorite. Easy to use, great customer service, quality products, and people that actually care about your technologically-advanced needs, not to mention: computers that ACTUALLY LAST!

I got inspiration by one of my newly discovered blogs called I Help You Blog, giving ideas to individuals with blogger's block! One of the ideas was to: "Turn a negative into a positive", and "Write a satirical post." Therefore, I present you with a not-so-funny, sad blog post.

I am not often, but occasionally called: "arrogant", "cocky", or "extravagant". Humorous, considering when one puts this into perspective: I have absolutely everything to be cocky about, whether I act on it or not. How can I back this statement up without being arrogant? Being logical.

Growing up as a young woman in a pressuring society, I never once gave in to peer pressure or media's "image stunts" (and do not expect to, either). My parents, who experimented in their young years, always expected me to be a normal teenager: do stupid things, learn my mistakes, and grow up. To their pleasant surprise, raising me with so much tender love, and the acceptance of imperfections worked to their advantage.

To this day, I am a substance-free, responsible young person who contributes to community service, gets nearly straight A's in school, and has received deep recognition for their talents and scholarly merit, along with a great, healthy parent-child relationship. You're telling me that is not something to be proud of?

I find it disappointing meeting individuals with less passion at my age. Not because I think I am better than everyone else, but because I have so much compassion for my generation of learners, changers, and lovers, I wish they took their young lives just as serious as I take mine.

Back in the civil rights movement, a young, African-American woman about my age, Phillis Wheatley, published poetry that shocked the nation, giving ageist adults a reason to believe in the future of the children. Often, I use this example of youthful talent in comparison to myself: there were and are far more individuals who made much more prideful accomplishments at a young age than I could even dream of reaching today, and even if I tried, could not reach, due to the difference in our generations.

I am a simple, Hispanic/Caucasian youngin' living in the Northwest, in a modern time when most people are accepted, for both their sexualities and their races. No poetry I post is going to be world-changing, nor is any blog post going to be an appreciated, massive talent, as pretty much every teenager is blogging these days, and all it takes is a few clicks, regardless of your English abilities.

However, for the modern era, being substance-free and ready to embark on the journey through college, and a stable, adult relationship is a big accomplishment. To know what I am good at, what my life's calling just might be, and what I will not tolerate within this journey is perfect enough for any parent and any well-balanced, content adult to accept, appreciate, and admire.

I am sorry to break the bubble for some, but being aware of yourself is not being arrogant! To those fellow peers of mine: don't give up on being you. Discover your talents, and if you already have: celebrate them. Anyone who disagrees otherwise is not worth an ounce of your time. Like Dr. Seuss said: "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."

My personal belief that I live by and encourage my friends to live by is this: if everyone was proud of who they were, what they accomplished, and what they are capable of, nobody would envy others, nor feel bad enough about themselves to call others "arrogant". In the end, you are just as arrogant if you believe you have enough status to confront someone as "arrogant". In the end, it will not affect you, no matter how an individual presents themselves.

Wow! We did it. After nearly missing our dinner reservations at an extremely high-end restaurant, partner Mark and I enjoyed a four-course meal and met another, nice couple who were celebrating their 19th wedding anniversary! In the end, they actually turned out to be religious freaks, and began discussing "fornication" with us--giving us advice for the future of marriage. Yikes!

Of course, I forgot to snap a pic of the main meal I chose, which was a scrumptious fettucini with fresh mushrooms, shrimp, and small chunks of zucchini.  Mm-mm! I also learned my Blackberry's camera can take quite satisfying photos.

Throughout my relationship, there has been a lot of differences. Between my partner Mark and I, we make up the most unique and balanced couple I know within our age group, and that is not always the most wonderful thing.

Mark and I are both very techy individuals. We love the Internet, complicated gadgets and whatnot. He works with HAM, an amateur radio group. I run my website, and work slightly on web design and compilation. We both are big fans of social networking: Twitter, Facebook and more.

Mark is an introvert, and loves being adventurous in the outdoors: camping, hiking, and enjoying a sunny day. I am very extroverted and an intense home-body. I love a good T.V. show and meal, under comfy blankets on the couch, on a rainy day. His nature is to accept anyone, regardless of how unnecessary their influence could be on his life. My nature is more judgmental, from an outsider's point of view, accepting all but trusting few--aware of the danger in situations. He is very patient, quiet, and purely kind. I am very loud, blunt, and deeply sentimental. We both pursue similar moral challenges and decisions, which brings us together at the end of the day, regardless of how different our personal belief systems are.

We both perform community service. He is on two Search & Rescue teams which he often trains with and explores his social skills within. I work at the library in our old Elementary school, and have helped run the public library nearby, including summer reading programs for kids. I humbly run this blog, which reaches out to teens globally, where I can share my message of love and sympathy for the most important issues. We are both passionate about our jobs and making a difference in our little worlds.

Mark and I are good compromisers: we go on muddy camping trips together, and stay in hotels with not a lot of walking distance to the town attractions. We have made some of the same friends, and have immensely separate walks of life included in each of our social circles... at one time, he was even friends with a individual who excessively bullied me (which truly shows you just how different we are). We enjoy cooking up a storm in the kitchen together, grabbing a coffee, and discussing world issues, contemplating what this crazy life would have been like if we had never found each other.

How important to YOU is difference in your romantic relationship? Do you feel safe being with someone where opposites attract, or do you feel comfortable in a similar environment with not a whole lot of lifestyle change? Growing up, I never envisioned I would be intimate with a person who liked hot weather, long hikes and the NatGeo channel... that's too much like my father!

Now, I am slowly learning to make my peace with our differences, and accept I am in a mature, give-and-take relationship that is not molded by perfect individuals, nor a fairy tale life. There is arguing, sweat, tears, laughter, and big smiles. I would not change that for anything. Today, Mark and I are celebrating our one year anniversary.

Due to the discouraging events of today, and the acts of bullying I witness on a near daily-basis, here is a video sentiment for those of you peacemakers who believe in true human dignity. This video was created by an anti-bullying campaign, and stars two of my favorite anti-bully icons: Michael Jackson and Princess Diana.



I also want to leave my readers with this beautifully moving quote by Martin Luther King, Jr., so very fitting for our country today.  Think about what this means to you, and what kind of an example you want to lead for the future generation...

"The ultimate weakness of violence is that it is a descending spiral, begetting the very thing it seeks to destroy. Instead of diminishing evil, it multiplies it. Through violence you may murder the liar, but you cannot murder the lie, nor establish the truth. Through violence you may murder the hater, but you do not murder hate. In fact, violence merely increases hate. So it goes. Returning violence for violence multiplies violence, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."