Vs. : A Realization of Life and its Quirks, Wrap-Up! Part II

My evaluation based upon the answers given by the KnockKnock Inc.’s Vs. book assessment on personal preferences of everyday life. Refer to this post to see what I am talking about! Please don’t read this. Just don’t. No! I said don’t. This is probably the most annoying, and world’s longest Internet bio posting. I saved this on my blog because I want to have a way to relate to my young self when I grow older, that and have future employers/friends know a bit about me. It’s really just a dairy entry, open for the world to see. I compiled this across the past three days/nights, and am proud with the finished piece I came up with, but really, you REALLY don’t have to read it!

I am not a very sportive person, so I agree my athletic abilities are little to none. I am quite overly obsessive. I don’t have mommy issues, nor am I good at mathematics. I am very systematic, one-two-three. I like to view myself as less complex, and I am impatient at times. My will to overcome impatience has grown over the years, however. I agree I can become self-involved and am *very* verbose, as well technologically competent. I do complain, but I am a hard worker. I am pretty awesome. Certainly not a “wet blanket”, although I seem to be called that a lot in this survey. I do have a few inclining tendencies toward writing fiction. I am enthusiastic, and have traveled more than some in my young life, however I wish I could travel at the snap of a finger. I’m not introverted, but I am thoughtful. A twin? We’ll see. I am fatalistic (I’ve explained why a lot before) and sexually charged. I’m a very physical-sensing person. “Mature, well-educated and discriminating” may just be my bio. I am romantic but not idealistic. I don’t have a lisp. I am practical and cheap. Ha. I am pragmatic and of course, in situations, can be inferior to others (I believe in holding proper status in comparison to others). I am not unruly, and I hate practical jokes. I can be cerebral, but I do listen to emotions. I don’t see myself suffering from illusions of grandeur. I am a free spirit, as you can tell from my Internet bios (I’m such a geek), and do believe I have semi-latent pessimistic abilities. I love being tidy, and in a emotional sense, I am well-proportioned. I am outgoing and somewhat agreeable, and do *agree* that sometimes I am not that well-read in certain educational aspects. I don’t think I’m boring… am I? I’m not that much of a daydreamer. I’m not laid-back, but sometimes can feel smug. I do find myself self-sacrificing for those I love. I demand autonomy in a professional setting. I am simple, and sanguine, but definitely not a frequent drinker (if at all). Did I mention I’m status conscious? I am productive, most of the time, and describe myself as “anal” often. I’m not bitter, but I would run a business quite well. “Articulate, observant and mildly obnoxious” could also be another bio example. I do have an eye for detail. I’m not irrational, but I dream up big plans that sometimes fall through. I’m slightly superstitious, and very loyal to who and what I love. I am a traditionalist. I think I’m reasonable? I can be aggressive, competitive and impatient—especially when someone is moving slower than I’d like them to be, which I can say is effective. I AM HELLA HUNGRY! ALWAYS! I am combative, in a friendly way, and have way too much time to kill. There comes Facebook! I am spoiled, but by no means an indulgent milquetoast—those people make me tick. I like to think I make good choices. I’m pretty autocratic and do respect authority just so long as they deserve it. I’m not phlegmatic. I am blunt. “Lazy, unemployed, with great hair” is another self description, even though I’m going on the job search soon. Without going in to detail or grossing people out, I’ll skip over the voyeur statement—let’s leave it at a “maybe”. I am a normal citizen, I suppose. I don’t think I’m less seductive “than people think” because I usually get the “prude” stereotype. I’m not mawkish. I do crave structure and am somewhat alternative. I’m not a “sellout”. I do resign to fate. I am enthusiastic and am willing to try different things sexually. As you can tell, I’m more than likely not self-effacing. I am modest at times when I feel I should be. I’m not superficial as a solid trait, but have superficial qualities at times. I’m highly expressive. I am passionate, somewhat melancholic and strong-willed. I’m not pangloss, and sometimes people who are get on my nerves. That, to me, is the opposite of realism. NOT a masochist. I am sensible and parsimonious. I’m not mercurial. I can be playful, but definitely not insouciant. I can get preoccupied with external validation, but not so much that it disrupts my life. I am a profound thinker, but not exactly “incredibly shallow”. Geez. I didn’t know “tempestuous” could be used to describe a person. Even so, I don’t think I am. I am used to getting my way, because most of what I shoot for can be achieved based upon my own will. “Noble, generous and prosperous”—what are we describing, Gandhi now? It’s your call! I have had my bouts of confusing sexual attraction for something more. I am very confident and individualistic. We are all cowardly in our own ways, and I am for certain. I don’t consider myself to be absentminded, but I am a big arguer/debater. I am a creative control freak! I am health conscious. I am fettered by my own fettering… if that makes any sense. I like it that way. I do suffer from power, because I know how important not making a poor choice in certain realms of life is for those who may look to me (even though we all make “mistakes”—there’s a difference between morale and mistakes). I am very anxious, naturally. I’m not a conformist, sorry. Earnest and enterprising match me, yes. I am meticulous. And I am small. I am inquisitive with periodic impulses and remain consistently objective. I am trusting with those who deserve trust. You could consider me a “libertine”, but I do conform to many of the morale spiritual individuals hold—only not religious. I am highly prepared, but not a good runner. “Brooding and introverted” sounds like a completely different person than the one blogging to the world about who she thinks she may or may not be deep inside her soul filled with flaws and insecurities like a diary entry. I’m just saying! You see? I am a little odd. I have a genetic disorder, so I suppose I am “prone” to it. I am a hypochondriac—one look at a Internet symptom list and my brain goes in circles. I am spiritual—not religious. Considering I advocate everything but being a bully, I have to disagree that I am one. Bully is a strong word, in my language, not to be used in the case of someone picking one item or action over another, unless it’s like Punch vs. Don’t Punch. Get what I’m sayin’? So, maybe I’d pick punch… I’m still not a bully. Yes, I am a semi-lateral thinker and do have a rigid belief system. I do everything but excel in mathematics. We are all sanctimonious, no one more than another. I am a opportunist. I like to think I’m established, at least a bit, and am satisfied with the life I choose to live/blase. In relation, I don’t delay gratification. Again, I’m not a pangloss - I’m also not a pollyanna. These statements may be pissing me off more than those kinds of people themselves. However, I am cheerful and pleasant. I can be a weak-willed sensualist, but I stand my ground when I’m not feeling it. Therefore, moving on: I am a smart choice maker, most of the time. When I want to be, I’ll be ingratiating, but that’s not my default. Of course I am sycophantic—who isn’t? Perhaps I’m a bit self-loving, but knowing yourself and being proud of who you are is not having conceited beliefs, it is having, technically speaking, “a over-inflated sense of self”—is that arrogant? Nah. It’s called self knowledge! I’d rather live my life conceited than lost. I am straightforward, and I do enjoy a meal out, while I stay true to my home cooking roots. So, supposedly I created my entire persona and morale, and now I’m “conventional” over “courageous”? Too shaky of a twist for me. I’ll go with the latter. I’d be dead if I were conventional. Yea, I’m just a tad narcissistic. I’m not that concerned with my outer appearance, but take measures to ensure I look “all right”. I hope I’m level-headed. I think of myself as trustworthy. I’m a pretty good listener, and keep secrets well. I am driven, and quite ambitious. I CRAVE human attention—I’m such a socialist, I don’t know what I’d do without. I’m not divorced, so we’ll see how that one turns out. I like to think I’m unpretentious, but it’s hard sometimes. I’m not restrained, but I am respectable. I am not Texan, which I am happy about. I like to please people, so you could call me a people-pleaser. I am good with my hands—they are fluid and full of motion, let alone good for carrying my numerous gadgets around! I’d be lost without them. I’m very sensitive, but not that dreamy. I instantly make my dreams a reality. Not a philistine. I’m a bit neutral. Not “rebellious” per se, but I was a tricky troublemaker in my younger years. I can lack will-power, especially when I have money I can spend but have to push myself not to. I’m over seventeen years old by about three months, I suppose that would count. I don’t enjoy working hard for money - my one superficial slip. I’m strong, and yes, cheesy. I enjoy being very analytical and talking a whole lot. I am sympathetic towards others’ flaws and don’t care to make fun of them for it. We all have flaws. I am dramatic, but certainly wouldn’t harm myself. I love meditation and being in a meditative state, but I don’t think I’m menopausal… I am a stickler for detail, if I understand that right. I don’t consider my personality “flaccid”. I do react to conflict, and have a hot temper. I do have WAAAY too many traits that are unexplainable. I’m full of heart and consider myself alert most of the time. I’m no where near “uncommunicative”. I’m a total homebody. I prefer safe and structured places. I can be pretty duplicitous and crafty - I’m witty, so what!? I am opinionated, but not always respected. I’m definitely not lighthearted to a fault. I’m quite fainthearted and deep. I don’t know if I’m as much “charming” as I am socially educated. I’m not an “elitist atheist” - never would become an atheist at all. I’m not that much of an abstract thinker, quite the opposite, actually, but I am annoyingly obsessed with correct grammar. I think I’m multifarious. I set my own trends, so I wouldn’t call myself “on trend” - I don’t pay attention to the magazines. I am detail-oriented and contemplative. I enjoy thinking about life. I am empathetic to others’ stories. I’m maladjusted to the wretched society, but I think I’m far well adjusted in a thoughtful way of living. I am a witty conversationalist because of the humor of the world. How ironic! I don’t suffer from a lack of affection, per se, but I do suffer from a lack of attention from those around me. I’m NOT mechanically inclined by any means, and not a “fashion forward”. I do have a problem or a slight habit of being tardy, but not to classes. Just appointments or meetings every now and then. I do like to take things one day at a time, but always have the “what-if”s in the back of my mind about the next day. So, now I’m highly communicative? I think so. I do crave admiration - don’t we all? Takes a real pure-hearted human to admit that fact. I’m not social awkward, but sometimes I don’t know all the right things to say. I can be submissive, but my nature is dominant. I’m the boss! I’ve gotta disagree on the high libido - I’ve had my good years. Perhaps later on in young adulthood I’ll grab a few more. Sex is overrated—I don’t mind. Nobody embodies indifference. I’m tenacious and persevere until I accomplish something. I’m pretty skiddish around jellyfish, but I gotta say I do understand the unconscious. I do maintain personal boundaries and don’t put up with any less. I can be credulous. Ha. I’m never reserved or unmotivated. Except for Sundays. I am sneaky, at times, especially if I’m thinking of a surprise. I don’t think I’m vapid, or that courageous. I’m not everybody’s first pick, but I don’t consider myself a martyr. I’m shambolic and sophisticated. It’s complex to understand. In transition between Bridgette’s Diary and UnstoppableKatya, I had a Internet diary with “transcendent” in the title, so I would say I’m a transcendentalist, for that and other reasons. I hope I’ve influenced the lives of some people! I’m somewhat of a team player, but I march to the beat of my own drum. Along with my cheesiness, I have some corniness. Cheesy corn? Damn that sounds delicious. I think I’m quite artistic, but not in the normal painting, drawing sense. Didn’t I mention I was the boss? Yes, I can be bossy, and efficient through that. I don’t know what it means to “physically manifest insecurities” - do I form into a giant blob, or accentuate my flaws? Yikes. I do enjoy indulging, so I will admit I’m a bit self-indulgent, when I have the resources to be. I think this was listed before, but yes, I’m a intelligent judge! I wish I did gain employment, but that day has yet to come. I take myself seriously, but I know how to laugh at myself and do so often. Again with the horny thing - I’m not. I’m a savvy sap with a down to earth grounding, yep! I’m very mobile, I like to have all my gadgets up to date and working 24/7. I need to be practical and out-and-about. I think I’m pretty funny. I can be cautious in certain situations with certain people - I think it’s good to keep that thin guard up. I don’t know if “flashy” means nude, or brightly colored. Hm. I am stubborn and methodical, but like to work fast. I consider myself quite egalitarian, but I’m not the extreme of certain civil rights, such as a feminist - many take their pride and belittlement a bit far for my taste. There’s a difference between equal rights and cocky ruling. I am secretly mocked by many because of my commanding presence… and what? Kidding. I do believe I am entitled and privileged by my status in the world, but way less than most people who have achieved great things. I don’t think I’m that prolific in terms of reproduction.. quite yet.. but hopes for someday! I am quite circumspect, I think that’s what charges a lot of my belief system, but I can have fun when the time, I feel, is right. I’m composed when things are right, but can be an emotional mess when they’re wrong. I’m considerably a “yes” to everything before the next. Now, I had to chuckle at the “cocksure”, but I am, at least more than flat-out “arrogant”. I like that word! I smell good? Sweet. Liberal would be correct, but not to a fault. I hope I’m competent and others can depend on me. Definitely not passive - that’s a pet peeve of mine in others. Sentimental is true, fanciful is a bit far. I am passionate about my ideals, but hair gel? I don’t think so. I’m not Danny Zuko. I do accept the facts of life, so I suppose you could call that “insightful”. I don’t think I cared about pre-school - I liked snack time and play time. I don’t remember if I paid attention, but I know I loved it. I’m not a Northeasterner, but somedays I wish I was. I am modern, but I have traditional values. Sometimes I feel as if I don’t have enough going on, but then I realize I do, and I become content with what I have. Growing up more fortunate than some others, I don’t think I ever learned the value of hard work. That’s the only flaw I have with money. I will, soon, and once I begin interviewing others for job fields, I will see what they do for their income. I understand how work gets you money, and how you need to work for money, so I’m not a Paris Hilton, but I definitely don’t feel like I work for my money. I do chores and help out naturally, so I guess I never considered it “work”. I can enjoy parades, and I love being in them. I’m not very compliant, as a kid I would always talk back to my parents if I didn’t like something. I learned that didn’t really work after a while, and learned to respect them. They were good parents, though, and they encouraged me questioning their methods—the only way a child will learn right from wrong. I do suffer fear of abandonment, how spot on was that! I do think I can be overly committed or interested in irony, because I think everything happens for a reason, and if something ironically or coincidentally happens, I think it’s a sign for a certain meaning. I may be a sad bastard, but at least I know how to feel emotions, unlike a lot of people. I actually prefer the company of men - I feel like they know a lot more about women’s feelings and how life works, most women are shaded by their idealistic views of life. From the tests I’ve done, I believe I am left-brained. I’m not often “stuck”, but often contemplatively confused about life matters. I am realistic, and sometimes paranoid about the future. Being joyful and enthusiastic is what gets me through life’s little B.S.es.

My tongue is numb from reading this aloud to Mark. Now, to wrap up the most self-involved blog posting ever created here at UnstoppableKatya, I will end this mini series by saying: go pick up a Vs. fill-in-the-blank book near you and figure out who you are, and who you aren’t, available in many bookstores everywhere.

…


This is part of the mini-series “A Realization of Life and its Quirks”. Read the rest here…